fall break!!!

Ahhhhh fall break! So the U of U decided a while back to give the student body a week off during fall. i think its a great idea but i do not like that all the professors feel like its their duty to remind us about how miserable we will be when we come back to school with the amount of school work they all give us. when i get back i will have a TON of things to do and i will hate life. anywho i had a lot of friends saying they were going to go somewhere for break and enjoy the week. My boss, upon finding out about my break, decides to give me a 40 hour work week! which by all means is fine because im still broke anyway. like i was saying, my friends are going away and taking vacations. me on the other hand decided to take a vacation of my own! thats right, Provo UTAH!!!! what a vacation right??? yeah im thinking the same thing but at least i can say i went somewhere and didnt stay at my house in salt lake doing nothing on my days off. so this should be an interesting week living in one of the most boring places on earth. the state of utah in general is the most boring state in the country so why not enjoy the worst of the worst right?!?!?!


oh chicago chicago. why did i leave you?

Nothings gonna change my world

This is one of my favorite songs from The Beatles "Across the Universe" and i just thought i would share a part of this song that really shares what i feel at the moment.....




Words are flying out like
endless rain into a paper cup
They slither while they pass
They slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow waves of joy
are drifting thorough my open mind
Possessing and caressing me

Jai guru deva om
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world

past couple of weeks.....

A lot has happened with me these couple of weeks that have involved my girlfriend. i dont want to involve what actually happened or even talk about it on here since its something we both need to work on. i was a pretty happy guy being with her and getting all happy and "gitty" when she would tell me she is coming up to salt lake city. to be honest its something i just dont want to lose over something so silly, and yet serious that went down. so now im just talking with her and trying to figure out what her and me need to do. i want to get back together. its something many friends have told me not to do but honestly i know myself better than anyone else and if im getting myself in to deep doo doo then so be it. its just hard right now now being able to hear what she wants and its causing me to get stressed. Ah stress...... the word i despise so much because i deal so terrible under it. which leads me to another question, should i try to be with someone who stresses me out even before anything happens??? or is this one of those things that just has to be so that it can be sweeter in the end??? well i will say this, if it does happen it better be sweet. losing sleep and waking up in the middle of the night breaking cold sweats is not something i enjoy nor would i think anyone else would. i have been listening a lot to kanye west's new single called "love lock down" which has a verse that really describes how i feel right now:

I'm not lovin you, way I wanted to
I bet no one new, I got no one new
I know I said I'm through, but got love for you
But I'm not lovin' you, way I wanted to
Gotta keep it goin', keep the lovin' goin'
Keep it on a roll, only God knows
If I be with you, baby I'm confused
You choose, you choose

thats love lock down......